this is an update on my final, but for u a first time look

I had been doing research on heartbreak. That was the theme that i wanted to focus on. I think it is really interesting to explore heartbreak from a different perspective. And I have always focused on how heartbreak affects the women, but then as more things began to happen in my life. I realized that men are clearly affected by heartbreak as well. And as a matter of fact are dealing with the same feelings and emotions that women feel, while dealing with heartbreak. The inspiration for this project came from my brother's recent life challenges dealing with love. As well as a close friend(male) who is dealing with mistrust with an ex-girlfriend. It was that late night calls, that opened up those wounds of my own past realtionships, that did something. It didnt make me sad, but sympathic, towards all of the people who are know feeling how I once felt.

I started online with simple research on heartbreak. I happened to find this passage from Sigmund Freud:
Human beings are not always aware of what they are feeling. Like animals, they may not be able to put their feelings into words. This does not mean they have no feelings. Sigmund Freud once speculated that a man could be in love with a woman for six years and not know it until many years later. Such a man, with all the goodwill in the world, could not have verbalized what he did not know. He had the feelings, but he did not know about them. It may sound like a paradox — paradoxical because when we think of a feeling, we think of something that we are consciously aware of feeling. As Freud put it in his 1915 article The Unconscious: 'It is surely of the essence of an emotion that we should be aware of it.' Yet it is beyond question that we can 'have' feelings that we do not know about.

And then with in the article was biblical references to heartbreak:
Psalm 69:20 Insults have broken my heart and left me weak, I looked for sympathy but there was none; I found no one to comfort me.

I found these passages to be really interesting. i started to look up the symptoms and "cure" for a broken heart.

A little later I decided to involve my friends, and ask some questions. The email pretty much asked what they thought about heartbreak, or to explain any personal experiences with heartbreak. Here is what i have so far:

lol being heartbreak fuckin sucks it feels like your world is out of motion and u dont know whether its going to be o.k. or not. You begin to constantly think about the past as if u could go back to the good times before the heartbreak. but you cant you have to deal with what the person did to you.You begin to think about what wrong things the person you have done to make it seem liked you were wrong. but if only for you to shift the blame to someone. Every one of your senses changes during the course of heartbreak.When u smell something it reminds u of the person. WHen you touch something it reminds u on the person touch they had on u.Taste is different because ur use to the taste of their lips.THe sound of songs remind u of bitter days of the heartbreak.THough this is the worse when u see them it feels like they stabs u in ur heart and it shatters into tiny pieces of blood and glass.well this is only my expereince with heartbreak glad i could help So wish me luck with this jamaican chick cuz i kno she crazy and u kno she is. later sis stay out of trouble

Hey Destiny, hope all is well. Just wanted to give you my opinion on heartbreak. I think men and women are affected by heartbreak pretty much the same but women are always portrayed as being weaker or the ones with broken hearts. Honestly, anyone's heart can be broken and there is seriously no worse pain in the world. My lung collapsed twice last year and even though it was absolute hell, I would rather have had that pain again than the heartbreak I feel right now. That's because there is no cure for heartbreak and there is really nothing you can do about it. It's so easy to have a broken heart but it really hurts the most when you truly love the person.

Hope that helps.


i didn't know whether to put this in a comment or whatever, so i did it here. hopefully i can put a different spin on this project, because i might have a different point of view.

okay, so. this is coming from somebody who has never been in love. it is from someone who has never been made to feel like she is part of something as powerful as love is. from someone who has never been touched or kissed or told that she looks beautiful by that special someone else. so, you could argue that she has never gone through heartbreak-- but for her, not reciving that attention is sometimes heartbreaking enough.

to linger on every conversation, every glance-- it is enough to crush someone. you can be so happy about something as stupid as a phone call, but when that next phone call doesn't come, you'll sit up thinking about what you might have done wrong-- you'll think until you can't think anymore.

so, how do you deal with it? you shake it off. you convince yourself that you're just being childish to wish and hope and wait around like you do. you move on to the next someone and tell yourself that it's going to be different, and you believe it. you have to believe it. but then again, it really only takes one glance to break your heart all over again.

well. i hope that helps some, maybe?
i'm ridiculous about love and whatnot, so if you want more from me, you know where i live.

good luck on your project!! luvvvvvvvv.

Well lets seeeee...I havn't been in a lot of REAL relationships (now that I look back on the whole "going out" thing we all did in middle school..that doesn't count, haha. My first real relationship lasted two years, but that ended because I just didn't want to be with him anymore. I guess you could say I lost interest, so I didn't feel any heartbreak on that one. He on the other hand...REALLY did (as you can imagine..two years then the other person just doesn't want to be with you?? i'm horrible, i know, haha, but I couldn't keep doing it to myself!!) ANYWAY he ended up checking himself into a MENTAL HOSPITAL because he thought he was going to kill himself...yeah..so thats how he dealt with it. I stopped talking with him for a long time and I found out through mutual friends that he was doing a lot of drugs and sleeping around a lot. So thats how he dealt with it (yikes).

Another story would be that of my second real relationship, the one with Chris (you remember Chris right!). We broke up in December because we were just NOT getting along..at all. We had mixed feelings constantly because we loved each other so much, but we just had so many arguments. He wanted to spend a lot of time away from me, but I just wanted to be with him constantly. We broke up. I went through SO much pain. Every time I thought of him my body hurt so badly. I had headaches constantly. Luckily the day we broke up was the day before I was heading home for Christmas break. The day after we broke up I woke up and I knew that I couldn't be in Boston, it reminded me of him. I went home to Maine for the week. While I was at home I forced myself to stay busy. In the moments that I wasn't busy, at night time, I was miserable. I found myself feeling SO alone. Here is the kicker, remember real relationship number one? I called him. I criedd and criedddd and looked for any sort of love he could give me. I needed THAT kind of love, not the love from friends, and I knew that my first real boyfriend still felt that for me, so I went for that. I'M HORRIBLEEEE i know i know i know, haha. But as the days went on, I realized that it wasn't just anybodys THAT kind of love I needed, it was Chris'. I stopped calling my first real boyfriend, actually I called him one last time to apologize to him for everything I had done, but I needed to stop leading him on, and I cried and told him how horrible of a person I was and blah blah blah. A few days after that I gave in and called Chris. It had been a little over a week since we had broken up. We talked through so much stuff, and eventually, we decided to get back together.

I know its cheesy and typical to say..but we're honestly better now than we EVERRR were before. He spends so much time with me, not because I always ask, but because he always wants to! I got superrr lucky that I didn't have to deal with the heartbreak for as long as others do!


I hope this story helps you with your project...I've never fully told that story to anyone! I guess I'm just ashamed of all the mean things I've done to my first real boyfriend. Blahhh.

I hope everythings going well for you! I know final project time is stressful!! Good luck!!!!


So i decided to take some passages from the replies that i recieved, with my own personal thoughts on heartbreak.

Working on the rest

Visual Pitch

These are the pictures from my pitch .

My Independent Project

i am really intereested in the movie color purple and had been working on a movie based off, a certain part in the movie. So my idea that I have it to continue working on that movie. I started to use Final Cut, realized how much i hated it and stuck with iMovie, also because of time. But i never turned in the movie as an assignment and would really like to finish it. I have a good emotional connection with the movie and know that i good amount of time and effort would go into finishing my movie.



I this clip, i focused a little bit on the clip right before this were and Cecily and Shug Avery were talkin about the meaning of the color purple. The two go on talking about how purple has no real definition and just wants to be loved like every thing else. This i always thought represent how they felt.

My Pitch

I think for the " 3 mins of my life" i am going to focus on studio time. I was going to do the when i wake up, but i figured that more people are going to do that, so i am going to focus on 3 mins in my painting studio. The decision of color. My paintings are based on spontaneity. Most of my decisons are not planned. And so i find myself choosing what color to use and where to put it. And even if things are planned out, it gets to a point where you need to make a decision, that was not planned.

My movie

I had created a flip book, and ended up not liking it. So i stuck with my original concept. I worked with the "Dessie Comes Home" story line. And i am not sure if what i created was an animation. I would like to think that part of it, mainly because, i took still images to create movement. The part where the girl is walking, is mainly the part that i am focusing in on. i hope that i achieved what i needed to, but clearly i am unsure. I am not a big fan of drawing and will avoid it at all costs. Which is why i decided to work with still images, specifically photographs.

so i am back in business..i went out and bought a brand new hard drive, because my old hard drive was broken(long story) any way i am just not sure my animation will be up to my expectation by tuesday.

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I focused on the storyline, of when i go home. i am the oldest of grandchildren, and they all follow behind me, so when i come home from school, they are quite excited. i shot my little cousin in many shots of being completely bored and trying to find things around the house. And she tries to but nothing is successful and she continues to be bored. Finally thee is knock at the door, she opens it, and there i am. I work with this concept, 1) i wanted to focus on something that i could relate to, something that i felt i could get more into because it is personal. 2) because i sorta knew that i would have to make a moviE. I like the idea of composing a movie, that is based off of stills. I have never worked this way and have become really interested in the things that i can and cannot do with it. i am excited about having a different outcome.